I am having an axiety attack

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So, I sure probably lay off the red bull as it may be leading to the anxiety I am feeling. Or maybe the fact that I need something and have to wait on others is causing that. I was given the wonderful task of assembling three scripts for one of the shows and emailing them to the network who pay us a lot of money to make said show. I have two out of the three scripts and what I am doing with them is watching the shows and making sure the scripts match the final cut of the show word for word. Not a super exciting task but still, good fun. Until I find out that I to delivered the scripts tomorrow by 10 AM and the shows haven't even been posted online for me to access and watch. So, now I don;t have a fucking clue what to do and am freaking out. And of course, through all this freaking out i learn that we can push back the delivery by one day so now I still have one day to work on it, which isn't bad, I guess. Hopefully, one of the shows will be done today and I can watch it and finish that script and tomorrow the second show will be posted and I can watch that one and send it all in on Wednesday by 10 AM. That seems plausible, right? Oh fuck, I need to go lie down.

Happy Holidays

Well, it turns out that the kid I was suspicious of in the last post totally got fired (or quit) the next day. It was so strange. The whole office went out to lunch and while everyone was leaving, my boss called this guy into his office and they were like, "we'll be right behind you." Once we got to the restaurant we were waiting for my boss to show up but before he did, one of my other bosses told us that "you know who" will no longer be with us here at "work." I was like, "what?" Apparently, everyone at the company besides me knew this was coming. I like to think I am on the up and up, with my ear to the ground to hear these kind of things coming, but this totally passed me by. Maybe I am not as well connected as I thought. And then it got me worrying about my job. I feel like any mistake will send me packing. This job has turned into survivor. I need to outwit, outplay, and outlast the other assistants. Oh, wait...I am the only assistant. Does that mean I could be replaced. What I have decided to do in order to preserve my job is to take on as many messing, unwanted assignments as possible. I volunteered to do the holiday card and gift lists. Not so hard right? Well, there was a reason the job was still available. It has turned into this mountain of paper work and no one will sit down and tell me who they want on the list and what gift they receive. If I could take the AMEX and just purchase gifts from Harry and David and sent it to people, that would be fine. But i have to do research into gifts that are not common but cheap. Its very hard. That is probably what I should be doing now. I'll let you know how it turns out.