Rockstar vs Groupie

So, in my mind, there are two types of people. Rockstars and Groupies. A Rockstar, by definition is someone who is above and beyond. Great at what they do. Some one who rocked it. Those that don't reach Rockstar status are just Groupies. A Groupie is someone who is just there. Nothing special. They don't stand out. They sit and watch the Rockstars work.

Today, I felt like a groupie. Here's why...this past Friday I have my review with my two bosses (you can read the post before this to see how I felt before going into the meeting). To my surprise, it went really well. It was about an hour and ten minutes. Twenty of those minutes were spent on my performance (good) and what I need to work on (taking phone numbers when I take messages). So going into this week, I wanted to work those things that need improvement. I have been taking phone numbers for everyone. And I took a phone number when a client called her looking for my boss. I told her, he was out but would be back later and she said that she would just send him an email. I was adamant about getting her number (Can I have your digits? Can I get 'em?) and she finally gave it to me. I wrote the number down and did nothing with it. I was copied to an email chain where my boss and this client were looking for a good time to catch up. Once a time was decided on, I created the event on my boss' calendar that just said "call this lady" I didn't even think about putting the number in there. Why didn't i put the number on the event? What the hell was I thinking? Clearly, I wasn't thinking, or else I would have done. So needless to say, he had to email the client today asking her to call him because he didn't have the number (due to my Groupie ass who didn't do his job).

What is frustrating about all this is the fact that it is all happening after my review. I asked for more responsibility and my boss' concern is that if I take on more work, I might let things fall through the cracks. Things like this. Fuck! This just sucks. I am a rockstar damn it. Not a groupie. A Rockstar.

And of course, this one little mistake overshadows the amount of work I did for him yesterday and last night. My Boss asked me to do research into the structure of American Idol and HBO's Hard Knocks. No big deal. I can handle that. So, I began my Internet research and once I finished (at midnight last night) I had four pages of structure for him to read. I even came into work early this morning because he was suppose to leave before I usually get in and i wanted to print the pages off for him to take. I got here (I am currently at the office) before anyone else and printed the pages and had them ready for him when he came downstairs to pack him briefcase. All of that excellent (if I do say so myself) work will be forgotten I can assure you. Damn it.